I feel cold, my veins seem frozen with memories that won’t budge to the point of melting. My heart, filled with sore thoughts. Walking by the beach, cold water touching my feet. I walk slowly, deliberately, I want to linger onto the memory of you a little longer. The headache from the voices inside of my head make me want to scream. But I don’t, I muffle them. I feel numb. I feel dead.
I fall, dropping my weight on the damp sand. I look up at the sky enlightened by the never sleeping unstoppable lights as a tear rolls down my cheek. I search for you up there in the glittery sky. Hoping you’d be seeing me. Where have you gone? Leaving me in this vicious cycle of pain?
I get into my car and drive through the streets leading up to the cliff.
The trees shivered and shifted against the starry nights. The only thought on my mind is you. As I reach my destination, I take a last look at a picture of you and me, smiling at each other. I put it back in its place carefully and get out. The cold salty wind brushing my hair. My heart dancing to the sounds of the waves slamming against the rocky cliff. I start walking towards the edge of the cliff thinking about the times we had until there was no ground beneath me. I could hear the sound of sea waves crashing as I fell into the endless darkness. It’s all dark. Darkness till I see the light. Darkness till he comes. To take me away, to take me into illumination from this darkness. And this is when the flame within me will rise.
A poetic commodity!!!
By Tanzeel Fatima