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A flame within darkness.

I feel cold, my veins seem frozen with memories that won’t budge to the point of melting. My heart, filled with sore thoughts. Walking by the beach, cold water touching my feet. I walk slowly, deliberately, I want to linger onto the memory of you a little longer. The headache from the voices inside of my head make me want to scream. But I don’t, I muffle them. I feel numb. I feel dead.

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I fall, dropping my weight on the damp sand. I look up at the sky enlightened by the never sleeping unstoppable lights as a tear rolls down my cheek. I search for you up there in the glittery sky. Hoping you’d be seeing me. Where have you gone? Leaving me in this vicious cycle of pain?

I get into my car and drive through the streets leading up to the cliff.
The trees shivered and shifted against the starry nights. The only thought on my mind is you. As I reach my destination, I take a last look at a picture of you and me, smiling at each other. I put it back in its place carefully and get out. The cold salty wind brushing my hair. My heart dancing to the sounds of the waves slamming against the rocky cliff. I start walking towards the edge of the cliff thinking about the times we had until there was no ground beneath me. I could hear the sound of sea waves crashing as I fell into the endless darkness. It’s all dark. Darkness till I see the light. Darkness till he comes. To take me away, to take me into illumination from this darkness. And this is when the flame within me will rise.

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A poetic commodity!!!
By Tanzeel Fatima

         

Moving on!

Separation- well that’s something we all must have come across at some phase or the other in our so called “busy” lives and that is because we get attached to things or people momentarily. I genuinely believe that all the attachment and bonding in this world is for the moment and in the moment. Be it :

our love with our room where we spends some countlessly precious years of our lives. our first love whom we undoubtedly thought is the ‘one’ for us . our best friend who used to be a companion in all the good and bad times of our lives or as they say our partner in crime with whom everything was confided upon. Our teachers, our classmates, our colleagues, our late family members.

the list is endless and this list is not just limited to some of the many firsts in our life and not even trivial issues as they may seem to some but even the more serious ones which include the loss of some one very dear to us or even witnessing a life changing experience.

No matter how close our bonding might be or no matter how inseparable our relationship may be. The grief, the sadness and the loneliness is for a moment or two we may feel that its over for us and that our life must have also come to a close rather than living in with this pain but then again life happens – days pass , weeks pass and months pass. We may refuse to live in for sometime but then again we are forced to go in with the flow. A few sleepless teary eyed nights,some lonely moments and then it all reaches back to normal . I guess normalcy is the style of life, a perfectly normal style of life.

Does that mean that we weren’t close enough with that person/thing? Does that mean we don’t have heart or feelings? Does that mean that we in order to keep up with the fast pace of this world wear in a mask and that deep down we still are depressed ? The answers may vary from person to person but then for me that’s not the way it is and that’s precisely the reason that made me say that every bond, every attachment is momentary because nothing is permanent not even our life, let alone some relationships that we as humans created to feel the beauty of love- to love and to be loved. So never underestimate the importance of a person in your life, never take them for granted. For as long as they are in your life value them,cherish and nurture the relationship and don’t ever let it fall apart because you never know when that person leaves in for ever and creates a void in your beautiful life even if it is a momentary void.
Life still moves on… It never stops after someone or something. People come and leave but life never ends, it goes on. We can’t quit ourselves for the sake of our family, for the one’s who love and cares for us and for our selves.
Written by Tanzeel Fatima

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Lost.

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Lost in the crowd
Too deep to be found,
Lost in my own dreams
Nothing but innocence and truth around
Lost into a world unknown
Changed for a new generation to roam,
Lost amongst an unfamiliar crowd
Where I am, is not where I belong
Lost in my own thoughts
Escaping the world at large,
Lost as to know what I really want
No desire left and no soothing sound
Lost in the woods with trees so tall
Can’t see the beauty of the sky so far off,
Lost in the forest so dense and dark
With no light to guard me through it all
Lost in an ocean with waves so high
Gushing winds but no shore nearby,
Lost in the water so strong and wild
My boat slowly sinking, no help passing by
Lost into a world only meant for believers
Dreaming of a change that is too tough for achievers,
Lost amongst my deep desires
Seemingly hopeless my aim for a fire
Lost in my mind thinking of old heart aches
Scared and closed shut my heart remains,
No one seems to have the key required
No Cinderella in a plain attire
I am lost with no one around to stay
Lost alone only thing left is to pray
No entertainment ever lasting till date
Gloominess comes often, smile fades it away.
    -Tanzeel Fatima

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Girl Meets World

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There was a girl in a new town,
Dreaming about happiness without a frown,
But a spirited girl like she was,
Couldn’t have survived in the new town,
So she molded a little,
Observed a bit more,
Little by little she understood,
What the daily routines of the new town holds,
Determined as she was,
To succeed at any cost,
She gathered her wits,
And started the race where she thought she fits in,
But little did the new girl know,
The race wasn’t meant for her,
It had already started long ago,
When she was just a spirited girl,
She didn’t give in,
She didn’t bulge,
She wanted to fit in,
Didn’t care what it was really worth,
Before she realized it,
She lost a bit of herself,
Little results of progress showed,
But she was a long way from the shore,
She met new people,
She opened her heart,
She shared her worries,
And tried to set them apart,
But everyone wanted her to change,
Some into this and some into that,
She was left baffled,
She was in distress.
With all the new guidance,
And all the new hopes,
She thought she finally cracked it,
The famous success road on which she needed to go,
But little did the spirited girl know,
What the cost of victory meant,
She lost herself completely,
In an attempt to adjust to the new trend,
Now the not so new girl in town,
Knows how to find success,
But she is left clueless about,
What it means to be just herself.

                          Written by Tanzeel Fatima

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That is when my Heart cries.

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In the silence of the night sky
With the sound of crickets behind,
Nothing to disturb me and take my time,
Under the loneliness of the city lights,
That is when my heart cries.
When some days have gone by,
And I can’t recall where time flew,
Days turn into weeks
And no new thing I achieved,
That is when my heart cries.
When bad luck goes wrong,
And truth turns into lies,
When friends turn strangers,
In our restless living style,
That is when my heart cries.
When promises are hard to keep,
And problems are tough to solve,
When an open book lies in front
But I can’t turn the pages at all,
That is when my heart cries.
When I look back and compare
My life then and now,
I am left wondering
What changed and how,
That is when my heart cries.
When each day is a new war,
When each night is restless, in chaos,
When I look in the mirror but
Can’t let out the frustration that build up
That is when my heart cries.
And here I am standing alone
In the middle of nowhere
Can’t let the tears roll down
That is when my heart cries.
                          Written by Tanzeel Fatima

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Hey Girl!

Hey Girl!
You look so lost and confused,
It’s not that hard to tell,
What is it that you are missing?
Tell me and I will take you away from hell.
Hey Girl!
Look it was then and this is now,
There is nothing to wait for,
Just lead the way
I will help you out.
Hey Girl!
Don’t be afraid to start afresh,
I know it seems tough and harsh,
And nothing seems fair but,
You won’t be alone in this, I swear!
Hey Girl,
Let go of your inner fears,
And remember to hold your dreams dear,
Don’t let anyone push you down to tears,
Bright spotlight is on, it’s your premier!
Hey Girl!
Don’t stop! Hold on a little more,
Don’t let go of the things you worked for,
Give it all that you have got,
And leave the rest to God,
Victory awaits at your door.

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No one is too old for FAIRY TALES.

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So, yesterday I was relaxing on my sofa with a giant chocolate bar in my hand while watching my favourite Fairytale movie, all glued to the TV when surprisingly my friend made a visit. I invited her to watch this movie with me and she said “Come on, fairy tales are for little girls and they don’t exist after all!”.
I certainly don’t believe that.

The world of gorgeous gowns, gallant princes, enchanted forests, twinkly fairies, magical creatures and towering castles isn’t just for wide-eyed little girls.

Some people scoff at the fantasy world of fairy tales and happily-ever-after endings. The world might say that such stories don’t mirror real life. They’re a waste of time and hold no place in the real world.

There is always a little fairy tale out there in the world, a tale of love or hope or strength. We come across various tales on news channels or internet– it could be a tale of a brave child who lived when doctors gave up hope, a tale of a man who lost his hands and paints with his feet, a tale of a girl who grew from handicap to become a successful woman or a tale of a war hero who met his love after 55 years. It’s just that we never noticed it because Disney haven’t created a movie out of it, but these are still fairy tales coming true in our real world.

Don’t we all need an occasional escape from life’s harshness? Fairy tales offer so much: faith in a happy ending, a belief in beauty and a creative outlet through an enchanting tale. We can remind ourselves and teach everyone that beauty and magic exist when we look for them. They serve to enhance a dreary day and offer hope and love.

And no one is too old for fairy tales. You might say you don’t believe in the Disney type of fairy tales, but deep down a story of love, of hope, of strength, of incredible achievement will still bring a smile to your face.

Every one has their own story, their own fairytale.
I heard a quote once, and I absolutely believe it -We all are part of a fairytale, if we believe in it.

                       Written by Tanzeel Fatima

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